19 febrero 2013

15 febrero 2013

Mojitos.

I went to my friend Saku and her roomie to drink...

Eat... Bar to bar...

Then direct to school, no sleeping at all.

Ahh, time to time I realize I can't talk with her, or someone else...

Write here is all I have to do, I don't care if someone's read, I just want to tell... Now write...

I don't need someone understand, I don't need someone tell me things to font give up, I just want to tell it, that's all...

No one has the obligation to tell me something to comfort or whateva until I ask for...

I was almost falling asleep at the bars... I was fucking fucking tired, and a guy wanted to dance with me, I was like pushing him away "no, I'm tired" "I'm tired" "I'm tired" "I'm fucking tired"

I didn't get drunk...
Kind of dizzy, not drunk... I don't like it...

I couldn't control my moves at 6 am, not drunk... Really...
Just like weird...


Yeah WEIRD...

I heard Placebo at 4 am... So loud, so hurtful... I miss the time.

Thinking that if I died ( Daniel was driving drunk and sooooo fast) it was ok... Fine... Just that...

I thought of Naya...

I miss her...

Yeah so...

Life is fucking weird...



14 febrero 2013

Beat.

I've this feeling since two days ago.
Anxiety
FAST AND LOW HEART BEATING
Tiredness
And a extreme depression.

...this morning my heart is like... Working harder to beat.
That means there's a lot of adrenaline.
I'm producing adrenaline, it happens when you have to "run away" like an advice you are in danger...
When you heart stops to beat, doctors inject you adrenaline to make it beat.

I'm secreting adrenaline, and yeah since yesterday I have the feeling of "run away" and never ever come back... To nothing, to no one.

Could it be...? My heart is giving up... It doesn't wants to beat anymore?

Why I getting even more depressed?

Hold on. Hold on.