Time.

Signs floating amidst the wind

Tears shedding, I saw them fall but couldn't understand why

This heartache consumes me

Who'll be able to break it?

Don't cry, don't try to muffle your sobs

One day, yes one of these days,

we'll be able to meet again

Even if no one in this world understands,

it's okay

If you're expecting me

I have kept seeing you as always

Just like this...

The past left as scars
running up and down your arms

Every sin made clear with each mark

Your smile was only in vain,

so tender and brief

I'd never let anyone take you

Even if we were to be reborn

Just like before, just like that day

I'm certain we'll be meeting again

Alone, taken aback in the night

It'll be okay because I'm waiting
Your figure, just like in days past

I can't see it now...

With my eyes closed

touched by your gentle smile...

Even if we are separated

and taken far apart

It's okay because I'm waiting for you

Believing that you and only you

are by my side

Even if no one else in this world understands,

it's okay

If you are expecting me

I have kept seeing you as always

Just like this...

Bunny Drops

And i'm dying for kiss you once again...

for play with your hands and look into your eyes

you smile

your voice...

your red red red hair...

I miss everything, even when you got mad... was so cute...

I miss you, and i'm dying for be with you again... and hug you... i loved hug you

You always were with me... I was so stupid... I regret all the time I lost with you...

I LOVE YOU

I love you so fucking much!! ♥

We were under the same sky.

Slowly... slowly...

Breath slowly...

Earthquake.

Been a long road to follow

been there and gone tomorrow

without saying goodbye to yesterday

are the memories I hold still valid?

or have the tears deluded them?

maybe this time tomorrow

the rain will cease to follow

and the mist will fade into one more today

something somewhere out there keeps calling

am I going home?

will I hear someone

singing solace to the silent moon?

zero gravity what's it like?

am I alone?

is somebody there beyond these heavy aching feet

still the road keeps on telling me to go on

something is pulling me

I feel the gravity of it all

 

(it feels like a funeral, all time)

Monday.

I ran as fast as i could, without breath, without cry because i couldn't breath, and i couldn't breath... beacuse i couldn't cry.


...I stopped till i felt cold and dry my chest, I cried, I tried to understan and don't feel guilt I did all... and i came back at home.


Why I had to fight?

...and him just had to dance?



The wind pushed me softly to home, I couldn't breath again.
I was so bad, since the begining. Never enough.

"If I ever push you away, I don’t really mean to.When I tell you I don’t want to talk about it, I do, and I’m just looking for the right words.Give me a minute and if I can tell you, I will…I get immaturely jealous of anyone who gets to see you on a daily basis.I miss you really easy but I also like that we can be apart and we are both okay. I love the way we love the some of the same things.And I love how we love entirely different things.My head is a complicated pile of thoughts, and fears,and cravings,and dreams,and this tangled up nostalgia for the past and somehow for the future.I’m flawed and I’m human,I’m broken and I’m trying,I’m one person and have two hands and I have one heart and I love you and I’m so glad you are here. ( :♥" - N

I miss you.

Hope.

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

日本、気を出して頑張ってね。私達はいつも祈ってる。

21:00

All is a bout numbers.

2 times to say it

Only 1 open door

4 times to die ( 4/2= 2 and 1 is the good)

1 thing to make me hate you

1 cm in the border

Scratch 3 times, 7 different places

Count (cars,plants, people blah blah) and divide it into 21

decimals? count again.

School grades: never 5, 6, 7, 8, 9. I don't like odd numbers on my grades, and 8 is really low, 6? PFF never.

(kyo+naya)(DEG)
(3+4)(3)=21

About food; NEVER odd colors, pieces (3 green broccoli 1 orange carrot) gr, lt, plates (we are 5 in the house, i need eat later with my sister in the night, or not eat till only be 4, 2 persons in the house including me, normally are 3 so... )

Step by step, from school at home.

Pair, odd... doesn´t really matter, NUMBERS do.

I N F I N I T E

(maybe changes, but never ends)

Black eyed

Fake

Everyday... i realize how much i hate people, how thay are a bunch of lies, how fucked is all around me, painted in a wonderful way...

and they talk and talk about how wonderful is being there, in the university, in a good one... one of the best... wich obviously... has a bad bad sides and they know it, and they forget it soon...
how all what i dreamed has become in something i fear now, is too complicated...
I waited so much, for a lot of people, of my school... of my "friends" with wich i laugh in class...

but i'm a part of it, i'm still smiling... even inside i'm like hitting in the face of everything i discovered of everyone of them, of course there are good things, like... some teachers...

but i'm sure of something i feared since long time ago, and to my disgrace, is here now, in my mind...

Even being in the right place where i wanted... i feel complete, frustrated, depressed and everything what i feel in almost everywhere.

(And i keep fat and ugly)

Forever.

 You and only you♥

Happy 1 year and 10 months *3*

RED

‘Cause the morning always comes to kill the dream

You had the night before

Well I’m dragging myself all along the pavement
Up in the sky, there’s someone behind

And he’s guiding my steps

Up and down the life stairs

Helps me thereby leaving again

C . a d a e i c

Midnights so dreary, tired and weary,
Silently pondering volumes extolling all by-now obsolete lore.
During my rather long nap - the weirdest tap!
An ominous vibrating sound disturbing my chamber's antedoor.
"This", I whispered quietly, "I ignore".

Perfectly, the intellect remembers: the ghostly fires, a glittering ember.
Inflamed by lightning's outbursts, windows cast penumbras upon this floor.
Sorrowful, as one mistreated, unhappy thoughts I heeded:
That inimitable lesson in elegance - Lenore -
Is delighting, exciting...nevermore.

C3

The wind calm down after yesterday's hurricane

I like the wind, I like unconstrained wind
Wind, I am at the center of it

I feel relief

Everytime the sun sets,

Shadows begins to overflow the room

The air start to divide into two

Then divide two into four

It starts to disintegrate

That moment,

Sounds start to wave in my head

From sometime ago, it was like this

I can't remember when

The shadows of those who take in the brightest light is thick

The strong sun attack me again today

Black tears, Bright smile, Colorless me

A world without color

It hurts even without wound

It doesn't hurt even with wound

A wound which couldn't be comforted

A wound which will maybe comforted

 

I sit alone vacantly in darkness room

I hear music in my ears though I didn't turn the music on.

Winter.